I watch people fall in love and break hearts. I have my own fair share of happy relationship and failed ones, but it’s different when you are in the background. Watching them get all giddy and cheesy and hear them cry and curse sadness afterwards. It’s an endless routine. A cycle I don’t want to be in. But then again, what is love without pain? And what is life without love? That’s why no matter how much we tell ourselves never to fall in love again, we always find ourselves falling over and over again. Swimming in the sea of hope and love.

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#LifeLately

I’ve been doing some city exploration with an old friend and we decided to document everything, hence the birth of our collaboration blog jmxjt.tumblr.com.

Our first post is up and we featured Spill The Bean coffee shop - where everything started. You can see the full post here.

We have a lot of stories and photos to share. Because we want/promise to take you to places through our blog.

So..

Let’s do something fun. Let’s explore!

Yes?

xx

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“Maybe there’s something you’re afraid to say, or someone you’re afraid to love, or somewhere you’re afraid to go. It’s gonna hurt. It’s gonna hurt because it matters.”

—Will Grayson, Will Grayson

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I can be pretty impulsive at times, but sometimes that’s what it takes to live young, wild, and free.

We all have the choice to keep things within us and we have the option to let it all out like freeing a bird in the wild. Without thinking further, I did what I have to do, I said what I have to say. It may not be the best move, but it made me feel so much lighter. I’ve been carrying 10 tons of feelings every day and honesty saved me tonight.

I don’t know what is waiting for me at the end of the line. I don’t know if I’ll win the race or I’ll lose. Regardless, I don’t have to live in the dark anymore. No more what if’s. I am now free to fly. A girl got to do what she has to do because YOLO. I guess I can sleep well now. Taking out the load of keeping things make everything better.

Good night.

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It’s been seven months of being away from home. I badly miss everything back home. There were days where I would want to hug my sister or hear my grandma yell or talk bully with my brother. I miss them so much. It’s a different feeling when you are around them all your life, then all of a sudden you’ll wake up and you won’t see them. Living thousand miles away from them sucks. I wish I own a plane so I can cross countries anytime I want to.

I’ve always loved looking at these pictures most specially when I miss them. I’ve always been a fan of jump shots because these are the moments where everyone’s smile in the photo is genuine - real happy pictures. Hence, I want to preserve it. These photos were taken in Batangas, Philippines during our family’s holiday get away - I insisted the jump shots, of course. It was our last family bonding before I left for Dubai.

These are the times I wish I could stop time so I can be with them a little longer. I wish I never left, but I knew that I should leave. Leaving is something that I thought about for years, and I knew that it was the right time to finally make the move. Saying good bye is my weakness. Imagine how much will I’ve put in trying to hold back my tears because I don’t want them to see me cry; I cried as soon as I was seated in the plane. Glad to have the window seat to myself.

I can’t wait for the time I would be in a plane again, on my way home. I just want to spend time with them again.

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“I’ve been wanting to tell you how much I like you. But I know that it’s no good move. I’m afraid that honesty will destroy whatever we have left. I know that loving involves risk and keeping my little secret in the dark means living a life filled with what if’s, but it’s a risk I’m too scared to take because I don’t want to lose you. Not now. Not ever. Loving is never easy. Saying I love you when you’re not listening. Wishing you were here when you’re in some other girl’s arm. And dreaming that you and I were together.”

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If you’re a girl like me who has a bangs/fringe basically her whole life, these clips are a savior for every my-bangs-is-friggin’-annoying days or when you’re doing your make-up.

Got this Hair Clip Pin set from Daiso for Dhs7; such a steal!

Also, these pins remind me of my granny who is using the same to set her curly hair everyday (miss her big time!).

I love how Daiso has everything that I need (and don’t need, but I want).

If you’re a girl like me who has a bangs/fringe basically her whole life, these clips are a savior for every my-bangs-is-friggin’-annoying days or when you’re doing your make-up.

Got this Hair Clip Pin set from Daiso for Dhs7; such a steal!

Also, these pins remind me of my granny who is using the same to set her curly hair everyday (miss her big time!).

I love how Daiso has everything that I need (and don’t need, but I want).

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“They’d argue over whose Barbie had dibs on Ken, because there was only one Ken. I didn’t even try to fight for Ken, even though he was technically mine.”

—To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before

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When you first held my hand, I was mixed up. I didn’t know what to feel, but I sure did feel something different. It’s more than having butterflies in my stomach. It feels so wrong and right at the same time. The way our hands locked and our fingers intertwined is just beautiful; I hope you didn’t catch me gazing at it. When you take my hand, I feel safe, I feel like I’m home. I was lost for a little while and you brought me back home. It made me realize that I’m still alive and that my heart is still thumping. If it’s love that I felt, I don’t know. But I’m sure that whatever this is, I’m happy.


But it’s not always a sunny day. It has been raining a lot lately.

There are times when I wanted to lock my hands into yours, but I’m too scared that I might break something fragile, thus I suit myself with just clenching my hands into fist and stare at your hands; I wanted to know what it feels like to hold it again. There’s no lie about how I wish you’ll hold my hand again like you used to. I wanted to know if I still belong. It’s as if holding hands is an assurance that you’re still here with me.

I know for a certainty that this is wrong. You were never mine. I am desiring for something out of reach. But a girl can dream.

I simply hope you’ll hold my hand again. Even just for a little while. One more time before you go. Before I lose you forever.

Is it too much to ask?

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“I want to be crazy happy. I don’t want to give a care about how the whole universe will look at me. I want to let my hair flow and swirl in circles like a ballerina. I want to do hops while humming a happy hum. I want to smile at strangers and see who will dare to smile back. I want to be free by exuding nothing but happy spirit. I want to smile the happiest smile like I never got my heart broken. I want to be so bubbly like I don’t own any problem. I will care about nothing but happiness. This time it’s going to be more of me and less of you.”

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I’m glad that I have books in my life. So then I don’t have to feel lonely and hollow. I can travel through my books. Feel love as I read. Learn new things. And meet new people through the characters. 

Thank God for books!

I’m glad that I have books in my life. So then I don’t have to feel lonely and hollow. I can travel through my books. Feel love as I read. Learn new things. And meet new people through the characters.

Thank God for books!

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“At some point, you’ll just get used to being someone’s option or second best. And you’re gonna be all right about it. You don’t know if you should feel sad anymore. Because there’s nothing more left to feel. You’ve become numb, accustomed to how you were treated.”

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Scribbled a little note on my planner today.

Scribbled a little note on my planner today.

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"Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay.. it’s not the end."

—

Beautiful city lights view from my bedroom window last night. Took this using my iPhone; bokeh shot for more drama.

"Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay.. it’s not the end."

Beautiful city lights view from my bedroom window last night. Took this using my iPhone; bokeh shot for more drama.

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"Call it anything but love."

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